hello hello..

im 1yr older le.

dont ask me how i feel.

i dont feel as excited as before anymore.

the older the lesser ppl rmb my bdae?

me who didnt join the biggest social networking.

which leads to most ppl ard me dont rmb or dont even noes when's my bdae.

it really reminds me during sec sch days.

once the clock strikes 12am on my bdae.

i'll be holding hard onto my hp.

guessing/wishing who will be the first one who sms  me wishing me happy bdae.

the whole day till 2359

counting how many ppl actually sms me wished me.

the more ppl wished me.

the happier i was.

happy tat AT LEAST nia, derra, laichoon n effie wished me.

none frm my store.

dont noe?

forget?

cant be bothered?

sharon still msg me telling me the kids no show.

asking me for their num...

hais..

i really dont wana work on my bdae..

am i suppose to be sad?

reading back my blog is so interesting.

as if reading story book

:)

ya..

this is the way i wanna be.

having my own study table

having my own work station.

really motivates me more to do my work.

if not i will just lie flat n slp once i reach home.

so can bro go reservist longer?

=/

i spent my off day today so fruitfully!

=D

since everyone ard me is working.

i wana made myself busy too.

dont wana laze at home!

i decide to conduct a new crew orientation for my new crew!

really hired far too many new crew liao.

11 of them within 2mths.

imagine 11 of them giving me all different stupid nonsense?!

i will step into my coffin earlier ba.

held meeting at 2pm.

2 session.

den met syed,.

he's damn angry aft visiting shaw.

came lucky plaza to eat.

coz no appetite to eat there.

den saw me...

syed "off ahh suetlin?"

me "yes boss"

syed "den y are u here?"

me "err to conduct new crew orientation mtg"

 

sharon walked into mgr room..

syed told her "good ahh she..off day come back..hardworking"

sharon "ya good is hardworking..bad is unproductive.."

im like...WTF..

-.-

aft meeting.

went off ard 530pm..

went marine parade for massage + body scrub

heehee

just buy a voucher frm groupon

3 session massage + body scrub = $60

did gua sha for massage.

nice!

worth it!

=D

usual price stated is $444 lah..

.

getting 1 yr older in 6days time.

the older i get.

the less looking forward of celebrating bdae.

but still will celebrate lah!

but y isnt he the one who plan for my bdae?

y am i planning everything for myself?

how i wish i got a bf who is loving n romantic.

he's not romantic AT ALL!!

>.<

his reason "wait i plan u dont like it"

wtf

-.-

doesnt he noe tat if he's the one who plan i will be so so much happier?

i will feel so loved.

i will really appreciate.

he wont understand how i feel.

he will nv do wat i wish for.

im really asking myself so many many times.

im complaining so much.

y am i still wana be with him?

is he the one tat i really want?

do i still love him?

i really dont noe all the ans...

he's the one i chose.

can i regret?

@yun: its not easy n tired being a strong girl

tats all folks..

gonna masking n slp

tmr working at 9am.

nights!

having twitter is good
can just shout out watever i think i feel on the spot
but at times i tweet alot
i do find myself ABIT irritating -.-
lolss

thank you my "gaurdian angel"
u really always there for some reason when im down
its really difficult n not easy to have someone who will understand u stand in ur shoe to think abt ur problem
its really heartwarming tat i cry out my troubles n u share ur problems
my wish will not come true if u wana pursue ur goals
:)

wat nia said on twitter is somehow true..
stop flooding ppl's timeline with all of my nonsense

wat a fcuking day today
its a saturday which is oso goon's off day
alr planned to go out den suddenly i rmb its fizah's wedding
no choice got to cancel plans with goon to attend her wedding
but got to noe ytd her stupidd scheduler still schedule her to work today nv think of its her 21 days working days
wtf lorr brainless black heart cold blooded
so since i go wedding n she go work
so at least i dont feel i bubble her

but who noes just now 230pm sharon called me saying liah/mel called her to complained abt my schedule
nbcb!!
first! pls read ur sms PROPERLY b4 to fcuking complaint. how i wish i can throw my hp at ur face!! "HELLO READ PROPERLY!!"
second! if u wana law by law, send the crew home lah! y still let them punch in?!!
third! i wana see how the next scheduler gg to do schedule!!
forth! if u can complaint my schedule sux! come takeover me lah!

just 1min b4 i ans sharon call
i msg effie asking her wat time she gg over to fizah's wedding
aft the call with sharon
i feel so fcuking down
DEMORALISED (maybe its my karma)
i digged into my pillow n cry

the crew no show my problem?
im not their mother
how the hell im suppose to boe y they nvr turn up to work?!
crew no show on ur shift, isnt u suppose try contacting the crew m investigate?
every single thing tell me, i just stay in store 24/7 lahh!!
better right?!!

at tat point of time..
i so feel like giving up
wheres my guardien angel?
wheres my motivation?
wheres my morale?

few hrs later i replied effie saying im having slight fever..
not gg to fizah's wedding
sorry for lying
but im sure sharon will noe im lying
initially i oso nvr so feel like gg
n now this fcuking shit happen
makes me more dont wana go
i dont my to spoil my off day seeing sharon n kene scold during ppl's wedding

i really damn bloody fcuking HATE lucky plaza mgrs!!
seriously damn fcuking no teamwork at all
u die ur prob
as long as i survived can alr

n now...
im home alone
think goon is working
i msg her to call me if she finishing work early
i so feel like drinking tonight!!!